It takes all of me to do this, but I feel like I have to. I want to do this for you, it's killing me to even get a single portion of my brain to work and set aside the pain and just focus on what's best that there ever was about you. Honestly, it would take forever to say it all in here. because you have the biggest heart and it's unimaginable to even begin to piece out how you managed to ever provide such enormous kindness and love for each and everyone you ever cared about. You always see greatness in
people. You've helped us pick ourselves up and made us do the right thing by anyone including ourselves. You believed that there's always good in people and that should always has to come out in the surface in any way it possibly could. You have always been the ray of light in everyone else's darkness. Your heart is so powerful that you could influence people to become progressive from a scratch. You had an extraordinary insights filled with both ignorance and wits appropriately designed which made your whole personality a remarkable one. I know I've said this much to you before already but there's still more about you that everyone else has to know. You have touched so many hearts, you've healed so many wounds in your sweet little ways. Your sense of humor is undeniably brilliant, You bring joy to everyone around you. I know I can't speak for everybody, but I myself had seen how much of a spectacular human being you have been.
You practically raised me. You have molded my sloppy little life into this one existential being. You have always been my angel, my hero and my mentor. With you I'm already somebody even when I was nobody. You never failed to make me feel that I'm worthy of everything good that this world could ever offer. I am loved because of you. I was loved even when I was hated. I looked at you and when you looked right back, you have this bizarre ability to let the people see the world right through your eyes and everything was just beautifully crafted to be at it's best. You were heaven yourself. You were paradise. Your amazing disposition in life is contagious as if you portray the qualities of a noble leader that the humanity in this world really needs.
I remember those days when I was intrigued by you. Even before I met you, I've always thought that there's something really peculiar about you. That's why I felt like I really had to get to know you. And that explains how you always brag about how much I used to be a "fan" of you famous freaks from school. You were right about that. I was and still am. I was never a happy person, my life was never stable. But you've changed that. I've watched you tried and changed that cloudy chunks of my mundane miserable life and turned it into something whole lot different, different from what I've even expected. That's when you got into my skin, and the next thing I knew is that no matter what I do, I just couldn't seem to shake you. That's when I recognized that you weren't just a stranger, You weren't just a friend. And I told myself that I'm gonna be with you for the rest of your life, like you'll be stuck with me and we'll be like stickies for keeps. Like I'm always gonna be there whenever you'll ever need me. But I failed to do that, I swore that I will always be there whenever you'll need help, and I wasn't. The fact that kills me every time is that I play the most part of the reason why you're not here with us anymore, I keep thinking maybe if you hadn't met me, none of these will ever happen to you. None of us is hurting right now. You'd probably still be here, doing what you do best in life which is inspire and be a blessing to the people who surrounds you.
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